Living Complicated
March 17, 2010
Everything’s different now…we’ve grown very indifferent to the things that hurt..
I know it does hurt but I don’t know how to tell you this… I am in love with someone else.
It would make everything so complicated if you knew all about it.
Excuses may be significant, but I don’t know how to deal with this thing anymore.
Will you ever forgive me?
You loved me, I knew that.
I’m loving someone else, it will hurt you, and am aware of it.
Will I risk my own happiness for the sake of the last thing that’s left to us?
What would I do now?
I am stuck with this mess and I don’t know how to clean it.
Amidst that very fact, I wanted to let you know how happy I am right now.
I may be not aware of what you are feeling right now, I have not been understanding you lately.
You do things your way now.
I admit that I am a bit hurt, but in my mind, I think it would be a better thing.
Madness in my heart has grown into something.
Am I a monster?
Will you forget the things that hurt you?
I just wished that one day in your life,
you’ll remember me as someone
who has done something good for you
not someone who had made your life worse and the reason why things did not go the way they are supposed to be.
I loved you, I hope you know.
I am regretting things.
Things I never imagined would mean a lot to you.
I learned many things from you.
Things I will cherish.
As for my love now, I will make it as my reminder to not commit the same mistake again.
I hope you’ll someday find way to understand me. I am sorry. Take care of yourself. </3
Love is…Love is…
December 7, 2009Love was painful…
but love mended..
Love was afraid….
but love made it brave…
Love was ashamed
but love learned because of <3
Love guides…
and love follows…
Love took so long..
but love waited…
Love cries….
but love comforts…
Love failed…
but love didn’t give up…
Love took the challenge…
and love encourages…
Love angers….
but love takes it away….
Love is not jealous…
because love is faithful…
Love does not need to talk..
because love understands…
Love will not forsake love for other things..
because love cares for love….
a feather fell
September 17, 2009I would have never knew you…
I was too busy doing things I never knew what they were for….
I just want to do things my own way like living life to the simplest.
one time of those busy days a feather fell…
if i never saw that feather would i even have you now?
I’m so grateful that one day in my life you came…
A fallen angel…not because you were bad up there…
but…
Because i wished for you and you came serendipitously…
God I wish my angel would stay….
I love my angel so much…and loves me the way i do..
Little Misunderstandings
August 18, 2009I never wanted to get into little fights with you…
I never intended to…I’m sorr y…
Sorry for the way things go sometimes…
I don’t know that even the simple issues could make you jealous..
I’m sorry i didn’t mean to….
Please understand that sometimes I do commit mistakes..
Mistakes that I didn’t knew they were until you said so…
Mistakes that sometimes, I never knew they were…
Because ’til now you didn’t tell me why…
Though things may go like this…
I wish that you’d never give up…
Because sometimes (often times)…I tell you…
“I give up!Goodbye!”
I’m lying….
Because now….
A day without you is like…
a years of sorrow…
A day that I would not be able to see your angelic face…
Would make me cry….
Sorry sometimes i get so cruel and irritable…
It’s just that I want everything to be alright…
I knew when things go wrong…
Though I know it was somehow your fault…
I promise to be the one to say sorry…
and I’l understand you always…
Coz i know how true you are to me…
In turn I hope you feel also that im serious…
I would never want to hurt you..
Coz it would hurt me too…
Im sorry..I love you…;(
Sea Shore
August 14, 2009Everywhere I’m with you reminds me of great love…
You were always there to appreciate the things that I’ve done good…
Yet you were the one whose done great things to me …
You gave me love that noone else would ask for more…
The kind of love I will never regret i had…
A happy day with you is like a year….
The sea was a witnessed of this happiness….
That’s why i left my heart with you there…
I love you…
(LJ01)
Help!!!
August 2, 2009I knew not….you were always there…wooh! sorry I’m to blind to see that..
but now I appreciate the love you shared with me…
mine eyes have opened…
to see all the things you did to me…
would never hurt me so…
but would always make me happy…
I am so blessed to have you…
I hope you’d stay…
not as much as I want,..
but as much as you would like to…
you gave me all your time…
but I dont believe im falling for you…
yet I know I’m climbing all the way up..
to reach for your love…
I’m climbing up….
‘And Im drowning in your love….
please help…
I love you so much..
Happy Days
July 29, 2009Ayon.. Napagtanto ko lang na ako palay nakalilimot na…
Andyan pala siya…tsk…okay na rin pala kasama ang mahal mong kaibigan…
yung tipong alam ang iyong kiliti…hehehe…
di kamagsasawa at mag-aalinlangang magbiro kasi corny man ito…
tatawa at tatawa pa rin…kahit minsan nakakpikon na…
masaya nga pala t lga ang buhay…
nakakainis lng ang mga nunal2x ( mole) sa kemistri..
nakakpagod mang mag-isip…kailangang gawin…
gusto ko raw maging engineer eh…
ano naman buh ang kinalaman ng nunal sa future ko?
kapag buh meh nunal ka eh babagsak ka sa board?weeeh….
an lito….patience is still a virtue..
determination is the best….
and inspiration serves well…lalo na pag lagi mong ksama…
lahat kakayanin…
thanks!
Pride or Love?
July 20, 2009Sounds exciting right?
Dont be…
It’s nothing that important….so what? It’s my diary (online)
wakokok…
ang hirap magkaroon ng ex na ni minsan di nawala sa isip mo…
kainis anoh?
kung nadaanan nyo na?
pareho tau…
oh yeah..i miss you so much…but i don’t want you back…
i’ ll pretend i love someone else..it kills me..
emo buh yun?
ikaw!!!
oo…ikaw!!!
can you please leave my mind for just a second?
konting awa naman jan…
how would i move on?
if my heart won’t?
why can’t i teach my own heart…
isn’t my heart a part of me?
crap…i just remember…you stole it from me….
how can i escape from this misery of love…
is time really a great healer…
it’s been years yet why am i still here…
like your shadow…
and because you walk in darkness…
you won’t notice me….
waste…..
I wish you could hear….
what my heart wants to tell…
you still have it….
return it now…
im hurting so bad….
i don’t know what to do…
would i let my pride reign?or my love to remain?
help me im drowning in my PAST!
Ang pinakaunang blog
July 16, 2009Ayun! Finally nand2 na ako…Ito’y ginawa dahil nainspire ako ng isang blogger na walang ginawa kundi magpatawa…
I don’t even know her…(why wouldi be interested)..eh kasi sbi nila inspiration ko nga raw..
Wala namang bago sa blog na toh kasi nga personal ko toh..(it depends kung meh mgbabasa)
it depends on you always..
here’s a story to break the ice…
My insan Splendor Xymon (6years now girl)
wag na kyong magtaka kung bkit ganun ang pangalan niya…
kasi lahat sila weird ang names
(older sister “Roverly Diamond” & younger brother “Lookinvar Romeo”)
bonggacious di bah?
well…
this incident happen 2 years ago…
nga pala ang nickname nila Maay1 & Maay2, and Maoy! (kasi drunkard ang papa)
Maay2 ay naghanap ng walis tambo…
Maay2 (splendor): Ma! san yong walis?
Mom: (wow sipag ng anak ko apat na taon pa lng…) Nasa gilid ng ref anak…
Maay2: okay ma!
hinanap niya ang ref…ilang sandali pa’y lumabas siya ng bahay…
Maay2 (nagrereklamo): Ma! di ko makita!
Mom: hanapin mo nga sa gilid ng ref nak..
hinanap ng muli ni maay…maya’t maya’y lumapit sa ref..
Mom:(hay salamat!nahanap rin)
binuksan ni Maay ang ref at tila meh hinahanap….pagkatapos ay sumigaw..
Maay 2: Ma!Saan ba ung ref!?!
sa nacornihan…sorry..blog ko toh…walang kokontra..kj kah!
