Living Complicated

March 17, 2010

Everything’s different now…we’ve grown very indifferent to the things that hurt..

I know it does hurt but I don’t know how to tell you this… I am in love with someone else.

It would make everything so complicated if you knew all about it.

Excuses may be significant, but I don’t know how to deal with this thing anymore.

Will you ever forgive me?

You loved me, I knew that.

I’m loving someone else, it will hurt you, and  am aware of it.

Will I risk my own happiness for the sake of the last thing that’s left to us?

What would I do now?

I am stuck with this mess and I don’t know how to clean it.

Amidst that very fact, I wanted to let you know how happy I am right now.

I may be not aware of what you are feeling right now, I have not been understanding you lately.

You do things your way now.

I admit that I am a bit hurt, but in my mind, I think it would be a better thing.

Madness in my heart has grown into something.

Am I a monster?

Will you forget the things that hurt you?

I just wished that one day in your life,

you’ll remember me as someone

who has done something good for you

not someone who had made your life worse and the reason  why things did not go the way they are supposed to be.

I loved you, I hope you know.

I am regretting things.

Things I never imagined would mean a lot to you.

I learned many things from you.

Things I will cherish.

As for my love now, I will make it as my reminder to not commit the same mistake again.

I hope you’ll someday find way to understand me. I am sorry. Take care of yourself. </3